There's a shadow close behind me
Hiding me, exposing me
Making every promise empty
Betraying love with lies and anger
I know you felt it, had to see it
Still, you reached inside me
Finding only bloody ashes
The remnants of what used to be
Clouds from before make it all the same
But you couldn't know, you wouldn't see
I felt your fingers gently on me
Caressing me and molding me
Making me feel cold and lonely
They cannot touch me, cannot hold me
But I still felt you
Reading sadness in my eyes
Feeling cold surround my soul
And laughing just the same
I knew what you wanted, and it wasn't me
You could lick blood from my lips
But never taste salt in my tears
And that was me
I felt the movement
Slowly weaving, slowly spinning
I had to pull apart and walk away
Separating spidersilk between us
Breaking the connection
Letting it all drift away
And as I kissed your fingertips
You sighed in passing
Watching it all disappear
I know where the light is
And with it all my happiness
It's swallowed in the darkness
Where I simply cannot reach it
Not when I'm still holding shadow
Carried in my very being
But I know the light is there
Burning just the same
Still...I keep putting ice in my heart
Where it never melts away